2019-02-23 overstimulation (18+)

Note: This is my all time favorite poem that I've ever written. Also the most cathartic.

loved you as a human

wanted like an animal

but was it really me, though?

these yellow, dirt-filled eyes?

i'd like to know just what you'd say

just listen, follow my lead

i wish you were my mind

glistening blood, sweat and tears

it feels so good, i swear

quiet sounds just you can hear

it started as a dare

go again, i'm going blind

you both poisoned my air

dying is so tranquil

we can try it all again

i want you to rape me

i want you to care

and dig a little deeper in

when it stuck fast and just wont budge

when all the signs pointed to red

when everything i said was wrong

but you'd believe me, like a fool

i'd like to lose you

no one knows when things are lost

i'd like to go some more

until god says what it costs

wake up and fill me in

in the end, it won't begin

you know, you're just like him...

to the girl who's laying in your bed

who forgot to cry, and died instead

it takes time, yet she won't move on

he's just warmer than the sun

you taste just like peaches

your voice is bitter waste

lost inside this basket case

violate me gently,

your twisted, fucked-up whore

the world will watch as i'm all yours

i'd like to come and be undone.

i'd like to love and not feel wrong.

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