exploration ?

its kind of odd

for one, my sleep schedule has been all kinds of screwed up recently

ive been trying to intentionally let myself explore more quote-en-quote cringe forms of media, art, music, psychology, philosophy, communication / conversation, whatever really the hell it is to mean to be human. theres this kind of … beauty ? its not really that being naïve to the world, to your neighbors, thats blissful … no. that worldview inandofitself has its own issues. its more that one should question the norms in sociëty, challenge them, that kind of thing. i believe that kind of extends to whatever the hell it means to be human

so i guess this is to say im intentionally letting myself be weird. i tend to get wrapped around myself in my own head, choking on my predetermined and suffocating norms i think exist. maybe its healthy every once in a while to do this. maybe ive got my head up my ass and should stop thinking so hard about the concept of growth. but who would i be if it werent for overthinking, friend ? lol

ive been looking over the types of communities that i was once told earliër in the internet era were bad. ive asked myself what does it mean to be xyz ? what does it mean to do abc ? other stuff too, im probably not making a whole lot of sense

either way im feeling happy just learning all this stuff and the end of the day. like im helping myself i guess

ill talk to you later, friend =)