chaos zen thoughts

28 07 2021 the church administration song

horror. horror has a face. and you must make a friend of horror. horror and moral terror are your friends. if they are not, then they are enemies to be feared. they are truly enemies.

i remember when i was with tilde, seems a thousand centuries ago. we went into an irc channel to post with the local users. this one user comes running up to us, and he was crying. he couldn't see. we went in there, and i saw the church administration video. children, singing one verse, in a dozen languages. always submit to the church administration.

and i remember ... i ... i ... i cried. i wept like some grandmother. i wanted to tear my teeth out; i didn't know what i wanted to do. and i want to remember it. i never want to forget it ... i never want to forget. and then i realized, like i was shot, like i was shot with a diamond ... a diamond bullet right through the forehead. and i thought, my god ... the genius of that. the genius! the will to do that!

perfect, complete, crystalline, pure.

29 07 2021 banana bread calzone

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