Why am I here?

My reasons are many.

Social media sucks

I've been dilligent for years on having a better social media experience. Rejecting algorithmic hellscapes, AI horrors beyond our comprehension, and artisinal time sinks, carefully crafted in the Silicon Valley. I stuck to two places primarily; fedi and Discord. The former because I like it, the latter because it's where my friends are, and the alternatives suck.

All of that hard work has been helpful, but I still have the seeds of social media addiction in me. I'm obsessive over unread messages, engage in arguments that neither party wants to have, and I don't like the kind of person I've become when it comes to how I talk to people. Leaving those spaces entirely is unhelpful for its own reasons, (todo: there's a good blog post on the web about this, I should link to it) but they still burden me immensely.

I'm always going to be "too online", and I don't have access to good offline alternatives. I need something to occupy myself with that isn't social media. And well, the idea behind Gemini is that it's just social enough I feel like my thoughts are worth talking about, even if no one reads them.

Old stuff is cool

The old web nostalgia can be really harmful and hostile, especially to people like me, but I do like the simplicity behind things that I can understand and keep all the important aspects in my head. I hate modern "conviniences" like smart TVs and IOT and awful frameworks for building bloated software that barely work. Having something I can point to and go "Let's do this" is helpful, so I take inspiration from a rose tinted perspective on how things used to be.

Funny title about loneliness

I'm too connected to people, and also too distant. I miss going outside and seeing friends, doing dumb shit together and having a brief pause from all the stress in the world. I miss the brief glimpse of raw freedom, and maybe I can capture that magic in a computer, if I just do it right. (I know it's futile, but funny projects give me hope long enough for the next funny project to find me)

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