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Hold my beer.

I should be writing my thesis, and instead... I'm programming whatever not important and not too difficult project that will be something like 50 - 200 lines of code...

Normally my personal projects have some key feature/challenge that make them interesting, but they are not too challenging so I'm motivated to work on them for 2-3 days without doing anything else. After that I have some idea that seems easy to do, except maybe for some little detail, 3 more days working on it, .... I'm not finishing most of them. Either I'm not able to solve the key challenge and give up, or I solve it and then I don't have the motivation to continue with it anymore. I save the project in case I want to continue it later and switch to another project.

On the other hand my thesis feels so out of reach and boring and too challenging... Moreover I'm not sure I'll stay in academia after all so I have less motivation to work on it.

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~zampano wrote:

My own pattern viz. coding (and most other things, for that matter) very much mirrors this. I'm beyond frustrated by my inability to really *accomplish* anything, and haven't been able to figure out a way to make being a perpetual dabbler actually lead anywhere.

~commence2897 wrote (thread):

my thesis is just around the corner. ten thousand words due in very early May. i have written nothing; i have researched nothing. i float on a bed of music knowing that, one way or another, i will end up somewhere; a place where i need to be.

except i want to be more considerate with my dissertation. i'm going to be writing something relating to the discourse on intersex folks in a particular setting, and i want to take some pride in talking about that community.

i hear a lot from folks that i'm immature for this way of thinking, though i know what i need, and what i need is not what they need.

i wish you luck either way. what is your piece about?

~beefox wrote:

> I'm programming whatever not important and not too difficult project that will be something like 50 - 200 lines of code

ah, a 6 month long 2000 line project then?