< what must be said, "must" not be said

~inquiry

I've concluded (not that I won't change my mind yet again, of course...) it's not writing per se that sucks. For me what sucks is becoming attached to imagined and/or hoped-for results of writing, mostly - if not entirely - in the department of "attention from others". The need for that has long vastly exceeded attention hopes/expectations.

So there's working with some thoughts in the direction of slowly arranged and polished word accretions. That part is challenging and mostly enjoyable. And it feels good to eventually read something that accurately/efficiently/cleverly reflects the original thoughts/feelings.

But then there's the ego-driven stuff.

And then it occurs to me that it's essentially some form or another of said ego-driven stuff that ruins everything for... me/ego.... >_<

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