Invega withdrawal and other things

It has been 24 days that I've been on 4.5 mg of Invega. No noticeable withdrawal effects today.

Other than the "benign" paranoia that is constantly present in my mind and which I don't think will ever go away, I haven't had any episodes of the panicky paranoia aside from that one day last week. My cognition feels basically the same as it did on the higher dose. I had panicky paranoia episodes on that too.

My mood seems stable today.

I have been feeling sad and lonely/socially alienated intermittently. This seems to be an outcome of social anxiety and rejection sensitivity. The other day I made a minor mistake on a public GitHub repository and felt stupid/terrible about it, and my brain probably made a bigger deal out of it than it actually was (catastrophizing).

I did a lot of manual labor today. I cut the grass early this morning. Then my new sleeping recliner arrived via FedEx, so I had to unbox it, move the old one out of my room, bring the pieces of the new one into my room, and assemble the new one. I feel physically taxed.

I didn't do any significant tech-related things today. I just did routine checking on my homelab servers.

Someone on Twitter mentioned that they were taking a break from Twitter and focusing on developing their skills without needing to continually post about it or do a play-by-play of their progress. I think this is a good idea. So tomorrow and for the rest of the week, I'm going to continue working on Hack the Box Academy modules as my main task during the day.

Right now, it is almost 4:30 pm, and I feel content with taking advantage of an Invega-withdrawal-free day by relaxing and playing Baldur's Gate 3.

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Last updated: 2023-08-29

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