Well I have a headache, so yay. It's not close to my lunar holiday - that's next week. I figure either 1) the grey project gave me a headache, 2) I sugar bombed myself (not the least bit sorry, it was delicious), 3) I'm allergic to the flowers I brought home, 4) it's possible the vaccine booster might be messing with me, or 5) some combination of 1-4. My headaches got worse for no reason this past summer and realized only recently it was after the two shots in april and may. Maybe it tweaks my biology just enough to aggravate the headaches - I know it can mess with menstruation cycles for some and I seem to be a fussy hothouse flower when it comes to hormone balance. I don't think it is anti-vaccine to say so. Things have side effects, sometimes you're just that one in a million with unlucky genetics. You rolls the dice, you takes your chances. Obvs I still went and got the booster because I'll take the headaches over a luxurious extended stay in the ICU with complimentary lung and heart problems for life. There is no way to know for sure if the vax is at fault. If I'd known in advance (PS, gonna get some wicked headaches for the next 3-4 months) that would have made things easier because I wouldn't have gotten all depressed about it and ordered supplements willy nilly to fix myself. But on the upside I do feel pretty good lately and figuring out that potassium helps is major. So it's hard to be too mad about it.

It's the worst headache I've had in a while. Bad sleep and I'm pretty tired. It's just the constant grinding annoyance of it.

Poor Other Cat has hurt her shoulder. I think Cat was playing too rough with her - maybe he bit her in a tender spot or maybe she was rolling around and fell off the bed. She only has the one front leg due to a birth defect and you can feel the bones aren't quite right in the operational shoulder. I think she pulled or strained something because I can touch everything with no complaint but she doesn't want to put much weight on it. She can get around to food and the litterbox okay and she's not hiding, but when she sits, she has to sit like a prairie dog on her haunches (it would be super cute if she weren't hurt). Or she lounges on her back to take the weight off and rest. I'd put her in the crate to force her to rest, but that would really stress her out. So I'm keeping a close eye on her, and putting that feline glucosamine supplement in her food. She likes it, Cat does not, but Cat was a jerk so he can just deal.

The move is now scheduled for Feb 22 and someone is coming by next week to estimate how many boxes and whatnot will be needed. I have to figure out the timetable for flying the cats out. Uncle Sam will reimburse us for a "house hunting" trip, so the plan is that I will fly to anchorage with the kitties, get them settled with a friend of ours, look at some places in our budget (and theoretically like one and buy it?) and then fly back here for the move. Spouse talks house stuff at me and I swear I see threatening calculus equations floating in the air. Do we want a realtor? Do we?? This is terrifying. Nevermind I think we'd have much better market options in april/may. Feels like it's a life-altering purchase that just boils down to plunking down a few hundred grand for a spin on the roulette wheel. AWESOME. MY FAVORITE. I think I'd be a lot more excited and positive about this if it weren't happening in fucking february. Nobody wants to move or house hunt in february in Alaska. Everybody leaves that shit to april when it doesn't feel like cold frozen depressing death.

In astrology the fourth house is the domain of the home, emotional roots and the family karmic legacy. My fourth house is capricorn, which is not a very happy placement, because capricorn is emotionally cold and results focused. Ideally the fourth house would be a nurturing, warm, positive sign. Capricorn in the 4th could be seen as sort of "family neglect" or "family guilt". I don't have the warm fuzzy feelings there that someone would ideally want. Right now there's five planets transiting my fourth house, some fast, some slow. Pluto is going through the last degrees of capricorn and pluto is all about deep fear and change. I guess I can take some small comfort in knowing that I'm concerned with finding a new home during the seasonal period of my actual fourth house sign. The sun will be in my fourth house through the first week of feb. Maybe I can take that as a positive. I've got a jupiter trine jupiter transit, plus in my natal chart jupiter trines uranus, so that means jupiter is forming a grand trine with my natal jupiter and uranus (and I'm in this so called "mid life crisis" uranus opposition transit, which means my natal jupiter and uranus are forming a kite with transiting jupiter and uranus). Basically I've got a blazing fuckton of sweet jupiter and uranus potential energy, which is great if you're into that, and I TOTALLY AM. Jupiter is a very positive planet, the "greater benefic", rules long journeys. I always look to it for moving stuff because when I moved to Alaska in 2005, Jupiter exactly transited my ascendant, and when we moved out of Alaska in 2017, jupiter exactly transited my ascendant. So a person could see that as a positive sign if they wanted. Saturn (lord of my fourth house) is transiting trine my ascendant and the stellium there. So maybe that's good, if I cross my Ts and dot my Is and am serious about responsibility and such. Business business business numbers, buy that house. STABILITY. TRADITION. FOUNDATION. DO IT.

Like the phase 3 says, you get out of the experience what you expect and set yourself up to get out of it. So it's probably smart to sustain those positive thoughts.

Do I feel lucky? Yeah, maybe I do. Just like I asked the universe for a three legged kitten and Other Cat showed up. Sometimes I can be a fantastically lucky person. Maybe it's a bad time for house hunting in Alaska, but maybe if just the right specific house is available that's all we need.