I am hip deep in thanksgiving prep.

The downside of planning a feast is it takes multiple days of cooking. Ugh, I hate cooking. Plus spouse and Daniel will be here this evening so I had ambitions of a major house cleaning/organizing but will prob have to settle for "kinda clean". The bathroom is very clean - that's what matters. I feel like if your house is a cluttered disaster but your bathroom is spotless you are still doing okay. Like you can make up for all housekeeping shortcomings with a shiny fresh place to poop. I dunno, it works for me.

I have another project I am working on - I will call this the grey project. I have been planning for this project since january, because it requires spouse to be out of the apartment, and I don't know if/when I will get another chance to do this. It's nothing dangerous or risky. I would love to discuss with spouse because I doubt he'd be opposed personally, but the grey project is, well, in a grey area, let's say. This is the point where his job limits our interaction (on my side - there's a lot spouse knows that he can't tell me about and I accept it). I respect him too much to add unnecessary hassle to his life, but I'm also my own person and there are things I'm gonna do. The responsible thing is to keep it private. I'm not gonna cry about how I wish I could do X but my hubby is such-and-such so I'm "not allowed". Fuck that - spouse's job isn't my identity. I just need superior planning and the right timing and it's fine. So I got the last piece I needed and I am going to start that project today. I am kinda anxious. I should have started yesterday but I don't want to screw up. In fact I am dawdling now, writing this. On the upside it didn't cost much. I would just be bummed to miss my shot.

This afternoon I head out to pick up spouse. I don't have as much thanksgiving cooking done as I'd like so I am going to be super busy with that this evening/tomorrow.

The mural is not hung up yet. I think I am going to need help. I thought I'd have more time today but his pickup time is earlier than anticipated so I'm probably not going to be able to finish everything I'd like and have that "ta daa" moment when he comes in the door. Rats.

Ugh I only have like 4 hours. So much cleaning and cooking. Barf.