More people of color in town means more people say hi and ask how I'm doing. I cherish these interactions so, so much. I learned from these conversations today that the philly cheesesteak place is in fact delicious, and I even met a fellow who just graduated from college having done the same kind of research I did, who as well doesn't want to pursue that major professionally. we will be friends.

5 days until The Thing. I have therapy tomorrow. I am currently high-strung to manage, since I'm hosting family at the moment, but I'm hoping to practice some relaxation tonight after I take Melatonin, so even if I get anxious, I'll knock out anyways. I wish I had a muscle relaxer for my legs and jaw, and an actual tranquilizer for my head.

The fear and regret and worry creeps into me when I'm not moving around or actively doing something. So I'll keep doing things, but I'd like to really rest eventually.