August 30th 2023

Got a new keyboard today. It's definately going to be an adjustment because it is an orthelinear keyboard. Appearently it is supposed to help with wrist strain, which God know's I need it. I ended up copping for the Lord of The Rings Dwarven Keycaps. I've always had a fondness for Dwarves. They've always interested me with the style, culture, and for some reason I've always had a desire to dig holes in the ground. I could never tell you why.

STRIKE THE EARTH

Shout out to the homies that know where that is from.

Today I spent most of my time in the office listening to High Magick by Damien Echols, and a lot of what he talks about is fascinating. I've always had an interest in the occult, and it's been a very smooth introduction to the magical practices. I have already been working on the four-fold breath technique, and I fully intend on starting a practice and self study of my own. I'm really excited I found something that resonates with me, especially because I've spent a long time contemplating the divine. I've always been that way, small-talk has always bored me, and as a result there are fewer people to talk to, but I've started not to mind it. The people I find fulfilling conversations with are always lovely to talk to, and I've also come to realize that some folks just aren't ready to have those kinds of conversations. Ones about philosophy, God, the times, themes in books and movies. For example, I finished Dragon's Dogma for the first time and it dawned on me after beating the final boss that the game laid out a blueprint for achieving nirvana, which I thought was really really cool. If you have time, I would highly recommend you check it out, it's worth the 40 or so hours of gameplay.

I am greatful for the people around me, and after yesterday it dawned on me that I am never truely alone. That daydream really put things into perspective, even if I still cry at the randomest things sometimes. Sometimes I cry and there is nothing that in that immediate moment that caused it. This scares me because i think it is a sign that I've got a lot of trauma that I've not dealt with yet, but I know if I continue my practice, I'll be able to conquer those demons and become a lot less cold, a lot more compassionate, and a better man because of it.

That's all for now whimsical strangers, remember that God loves you, there is light in the world, and you are never alone.

Until next time :)