September 6th, 2023

It's currently 1 AM and I have lost all hope in sleeping any longer. Kinda sucks, especially since if I went back to bed now, I would be in a world of hurt come 4 AM when I have to get up to go to work. Not enough time for a full REM cycle, and as such I'd wake up groggy and I'm not trying to have that. I'd rather be awake longer than sleep more and be miserable at work.

Had a dream where I was shooting the shit with a few folks that I've just barely met, and for some reason the conversation when to pointing my autism at learning Chinese. I have no idea why, I wish it was Japanese since I've already gotten some learning material to attempt to learn. Bad thing is, is that I've not tried delving into the book farther than the first few pages, and since there is a lot of stuff I want to pick up and learn, I need to start spending my time more wisely in order to maximize what I am doing. I think I'm addicted to productivity especially since my brain doesn't want to shut off at night. For example, when I woke up just now I was in mid thought and had no idea what was going on other than "so that was what the answer was." and now I'll spend my day wondering what the full thought was. Oh well.

Until next time whimsical strangers. Remember that God loves you, you aren't alone, and there is light in this world.