i've spent a lot of time today working on my gemini capsule, which might be where you're reading this document. you might also be reading in plain text many years in the future because my determination to publish on the gemini protocol never lasted.

maybe you don't even know what i'm talking about.

gemini brings me joy. writing this journal, knowing it's public, yet not connected to my real-life persona: there's something magical about that.

also, the fact that i've figured out how to use sourcehut, builds, and i understand that to a much greater extent makes me happy.

some time late in the day i walked away from my computer and walked outside, and the real world felt so odd.

i had a sinking feeling that making a gemini capsule is stupid and useless and nobody will care. and the fact is, that's sort of true. yet i still want to do it.

it's like going on a walk. i have no destination, i just enjoy it. i like making this shit. i like messing around in a command line. it's a hobby, yes, and that's as good as anything.

(and way cheaper than spending money out there in the city.)

(though i'll probably end up on the $100/mo sourcehut plan just because i love to support great, simple software.)

i have an idea for a poem titled "all american fuckboy." or maybe that's the title of my next publication.

most of the good pieces of writing i've ever created all laddered up to a title i thought of. it's a guiding light, the big idea. "all american fuckboy" just sounds like a publication that i want to make exist.