4.26 I don’t understand the part in lose yourself where Eminem compares himself to a snail

4.24 a grocery store has always been a very comforting environment for me

thrashing against the circumstances of reality.....that's suffering baby.....

that's why i waited 25 min for the q54 this morning. practicing acceptance.

jmax i don't know who you are and i've never read your flounder until today but i saw your 30 rock reference and i love it. i think about 30 rock constantly. i'm trying to get alex to watch it with me but it's probably like a multi year goal.

4.23 first of all alex, you sent me that meme and then explained it to me. secondly, i read your blog. thirdly, stop bragging about worry and LEND IT TO ME. i want to make a little message section of flounder with em's cutie html (em all i do is steal your cute little designs. is it html idek)

4.22 ashley flounder fans will remember my work reply guy. he put a half hour mtg on my calendar for vague and mysterious reasons and then spent the first 15 min negging me about not talking to him. frustrating and weird. he said i had a heaviness about me. i just work on a different team at basically a different company now!!! idk!!

i'm like asking polite conversational questions and he's literally like: why would i tell you where i'm traveling? you keep secrets from me. we haven't spoken in a decade. like i'm AT WORK!!! BE NORMAL.

they are calling me the most cold, sleepy woman in all of queens

4.18 @alex men explain things to me

4.16 feeling as though much is obscured from me at the moment...

4.13 chappell roan's good luck babe coachella snippet is making me lose my mind

went to the Apple Store with Alex to get him a new phone which feels like going to the doctor with someone

4.11 i'm coming on here to say that i have been betting on losing dogs in a huge way

3.29 it’s me and my revlon one step against the world fr

3.18 questioning if I overuse the dot dot dot …. I don’t really feel like anyone I talk to uses it as much as me. but I’m a ponderous bitch ….

3.15.24 70 degrees in March …. Sundress interlude

3.13.24 Alex my flounder is broken

3.13.24 underneath these bangs there is a sad woman

Do you guys think my suffering will ever end or no

every woman in ridgewood has a glasses-wearing boyfriend who looks malnourished.

everyone make sure you do your annual reading of dear march come in. https://poets.org/poem/dear-march-come-1320

i'm coming on here to say i'm reading moby dick and it's good actually

saw a picture of the snowy clark fork river running through missoula....insta tears!

does anyone have recommendations for something i can use to make sitting in my office chair more stable? i feel like my hips are all out of whack

https://www.vaticannews.va/en/pope/news/2024-01/marxists-and-christians-to-fight-together-corruption-illegality.html

lol alex so true. let us proclaim the mystery of faith. catholicism best religion. everyone post your confirmation names below ↓↓↓↓↓

i've also barely walked the past few days. the past two weeks i've been getting like 15k steps a day. the past two days have been my strongest urge to drink. it's not like. a craving. but i do wish i could drink. no exercise + working & hating it + too cold out. grumpy grumpy grumpy.

alex thinks i should be nicer to WRG. everyone at work who interacts with me is interacting with me really pleasantly like they know i hate this and also that my contract is ending soon. it's hard when people are being nice to me but i still feel like a bitch. sorry..............

haven't run in 5 days which is terrible. weirdly can't convince myself to get on my yoga mat. i walked margot assessing for runability and it still seems really icy out on the sidewalks. need 2 run. addicted 2 running.

going to use flounder to complain about work today instead of crying softly cam off in a meeting with my manager (what i did yesterday to manage my feelings)

i can't believe people from both companies i'm split between messaged me at 6pm yesterday. send me a crying emoji all you want if you ask me to do something at 4:40pm sorry that's a next day request. my contract expires in 6 weeks i unfortunately don't give a fuck actually at all. it's insane that these competing requests are my new manager vs my fucking work reply guy, always being maximally annoying at the the most inconvenient moment.

Alex maybe in a few years it’ll be soft like a blanket….

alex i like my wool hat but a wool blanket is a bridge too far ... it's not soft like at all

also em if you're reading this can i play your music game with you guys?? :):):)

woke up so nicely with Margot snuggled up to me, went to the farmers market and one of the farmers remembered me, ran 5 miles, walked Margot (who got a sweet amount of neighborhood fanfare)……. I slip into bed post-shower and see snow softly falling outside my window ….. beauty is all around us …

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xaPNR-_Cfn0&ab_channel=ChappellRoanVEVO i love her

alex i'm just seeing that. when did you do that i thought you couldn't see my password

Ashley was HACKED by me

saw a raccoon climbing on my fence this morning. two times!

kill me by indigo de souza ........ best song of all time

In middle school my best friend and I used to sing Billy Joel’s “goodnight my angel” to each other before we fell asleep at sleepovers in an act of extreme unrealized lesbianism. Look up the lyrics

they should let me do suicidal ideation at work

kingms bc my half marathon is on santa con

woke up insane. so grateful this happens less and less but a pure cortisol wakeup is so palpable to me, i'll literally go from in bed to dry heaving over the toilet in like 30 seconds because it makes me so nauseous. didn't eat enough post run yesterday, probably not eating enough in general. did something stupid yesterday that i probably wouldn't have done if i checked the astrology. yeah whatever, venus is conjunct the south node and it's fucking me up, that planet runs my life.

thinking a weird amount about my ex girlfriend from hs/college, not in a yearning way. i generally enjoy watching old videos of us because we had some bits that i still think are hilarious. thinking this morning about her life now and how she owns a board game store. when we were picking our colleges, i remember her dad telling me that he saved basically 100,000 for each of his kids, and if we went in-state she/(we implied) would have more of that money left over to get essentially as a gift post-grad. alex says no posting exact money amounts on flounder #salarytransparency #postgradgifttransparency.

it would have been harder for me to date her now because of how bitter-pilled i am. but it's really crazy what your life can look like if your parents give you a lot of money. lol. like when she got her license she got a brand new, nice suv. she didn't have a job after college, her linkedin is literally her working for her dad and then being the owner of the board game store her dad bought her (sounds creepy but if you google the store, like the third thing that comes up is her dad registering the business in his name). it looks really successful and has 5/5 stars with like 100 reviews. idk. always interested in the lives of people who seem to be really good at not working dumb shitty computer jobs like i have devoted my life to.

they should hire a recruiting coordinator who doesn't experience rage when literally anyone emails her

the comment section for fade into you by mazzy star is just a bunch of people lusting for the 90s

alex i'm watching your video but my phone is in the other room

i talk to my family for like 15 min a week and i swear it takes me 24 hours to recover. it melts my brain.

alex trolling around food reddit & i found two new places near maria hernandez that people say are really good for sandwiches. carmeta's & foster sundry. look them up. #lunchbike #bikelunch

just found out that the cheddar bagel twist i get like 3x a week from dunkin donuts has 16 grams of protein making it essentially a health food to me

experiencing some smugness

alex i can't get it to work

having to work is spiritual warfare

i no longer feel like god is smiling down upon me

writing an email to a 60 year old doctor to formally apologize to him for the second time that i sent him the wrong file. diagnosing him with gigantic fucking baby disease

alex lmao me https://www.reddit.com/r/running/comments/4qsxx4/how_to_train_for_half_a_marathon_in_4_weeks/

so tired from my run i'm considering watching a movie

nymetroweather predicting a snowy winter ... grocery store across the street opening... the universe is working in my favor... god is smiling down upon me...

angryworking. my b*** wants me to send out a survey to people who applied for a job asking them if they're interested in the job. makes no sense. they applied because they're interested.

i feel like i'm constantly doing things that make no sense or are thought-through like 40% of the way.

You are literally too boypilled to understand

https://x.com/whstancil/status/1722469723420369074?s=20

here's the tweet alex.

here's an unrelated flounder: going to bernie's tonight. maybe. NYC institUTION.

WRG doing needless violence onto me. i stopped working at 2pm yesterday and put a little status in my slack. so i didn't answer a slack he sent me. then he repings me AS SOON AS I LOG on this morning some cold chilly message that's basically "per my last email." then i instantly respond & give him what he's asking for & he's like. okay let's talk about this in our sync tomorrow. like obviously it was not urgent he was just annoyed i didn't answer his insane message. no being needy at work!!

putting on alex & listening to him like a podcast

insane to me that people think they need to let me know they're disappointed when they didn't get a job. "i'm sorry you're disappointed :(, you are really so great :(" says a 24 year old recruiting coordinator to a 47 year old doctor. are you happy now.

alex remind me to tell you about the ACAB interaction i had this summer in sturgis SD. also i think you should wear tweed in your talk. JK i think you should dress extremely normal, that is the best way to wear authority.

originally came on here bc i was thinking about that moose i saw. when i was convening with the moose in jasper...basically all down hill from there. i miss her.

it's insane how much working on a male or female dominated team changes the feeling of work. the team i work on is literally 3 glasses-wearing yoga-practicing under 35yo women. we share screen to show guys we have crushes on. we talk about astrology and our periods. we talk about how we're bad at math (because of social conditioning). i love being a woman in the workplace. alex thinks this is gender essentialism or something.

alex the shot 19 sec in made me laugh out loud. this is a crazy video. wear a black dress on a plane

alex says i can't go to suny purchase talk because i'm too low skill

we met at acme & the externalization of female anxiety: my forthcoming thesis

crazy how the nutcracker suite is - not an opinion a fact - one of the best pieces of music ever but it's so associated with christmas and then by proxy children that most live performances are for kids. last year i really kept an eye out for a way to see the nutcracker & not feel like i was crashing a children's event...putting my desire into the

ether...where is the nutcracker for Serious Adults ...

i take back the bad stuff i said about my b***

taught her what a femcel was

something i've realized is important to me (i honestly think most people with like medium-developed tastes demonstrate this) is that people care when i recommend them something. usually i will force them to engage if relationally appropriate. ex: i am personally hurt when my mom ignores my 1000 of recs to her (i shouldn't be but whatever). and i'm so happy when my boss is like: I AM STILL GOING TO TAKE THAT QUIZ YOU SENT ME A MONTH AGO

sorry but i love alison roman's extremely nyc wedding (looking at the pictures for vogue). the two minutes with my wife picture. the double decker bus.